Yeeeezzzzzzz. Switchfoot - Love Alone is Worth the Fight
Yeeeezzzzzzz. Switchfoot - Love Alone is Worth the Fight
Meepy deepy kind of day.
I want home.
Blurry, unedited stills from my next film project! :) Can’t thank my amazing actors enough. They were awesome for coming out and being so fun to work with even when it was 20 degrees outside LOL.
Heard this song today and just wanted to break out dancing.
Eeeeets gonn’ be a long night!
It’s one of those “stay-in-dining-hall-all-day” type of days :)
Can’t believe I’m in Boston. LOL. It’s the weirdest thing getting off the plane. It never feels like you traveled across the country. You just get on and pop out into a different world. :P Never hits me that I’m actually breathing, studying, and living in here. And even though its freaking 37 degrees here at the moment and my fingers are fuhreezing at dining hall, what a beautiful day it is indeed.
Movies get to me.
I was watching The Pianist today and I couldn’t bring myself to watch the whole thing. I felt so sick and disgusted. For those of you who haven’t watched it, it’s another movie about the holocaust. And it’s absolutely horrifying.
I left the room, went into the stuvi living room and just started playing Christian music on my iPhone while staring at a blank piece of paper. And to be completely honest, I was so shaken. I kept putting myself in the shoes of a Jew living in that time period and imagining what thoughts would run through my mind if I saw innocent people getting killed every day. If I lived in poverty, had to see women begging for water for their babies dying of thirst, if I got separated from my loved ones, or saw dead children on the streets - if I had to witness and experience so much injustice. What kind of insanity would I enter?
Movies get to me because I’m good at imagining things. Scary good. I almost cried just sitting on the couch alone because all the pictures of myself in Nazi Germany in the 1940s became so real to me. I felt like punching a wall. I realized how many times I’ve told other people, “No matter how good or bad life gets, God is good.” And the song that was playing on my iPhone at that very moment was Lord Let Your Glory Fall. The chorus goes, “You are good, You are good, and Your love endures.” And for a moment I felt so disgusted at myself for saying that because what do I know about hardship? You go to freaking BU, you never had to starve a meal in your life, you’ve never seen more blood than from a paper cut, you’ve experienced what - heartbreak? HA. How quickly would you abandon God if you were in the situation of the Jews. If all your friends and family were killed before your eyes - how quickly would you follow the man who’s line went, “I don’t believe in God anymore”? I was shaken. I asked God, how on earth could you let something like the holocaust happen? 9-11? The typhoon in the Philippines?! I asked Him to calm my heart and to comfort me because I was so disturbed and I could literally feel my faith crumbling… by a movie for goodness sake.
As undramatically as I can put it (seriously, just go with me on this one) I was having a panic attack. But God just started speaking so many truths. Out of nowhere I started repeating to myself, “This is not your life to live. This is not your life to live. This is not your life to live. By death we are not being robbed.” Life is temporary. Temporary suffering for eternal peace! I imagined all the believers who died just beaming down from heaven. But still my heart was so heavy. This was a wake up call.
I just stared blanking around the room and couldn’t shake how blessed I was. I looked at all my camera gear sitting in the corner. How much money I have to spend on those things, I looked around the room - how much we take for granted having shelter - not to mention at one of the nicest residences ever. I looked at the blank piece of paper in front of me - how much I freaking fret over school assignments and pray to God about tests and projects when there are people starving and dying and being oppressed. What do you know about hardship, Rachel Kim?! Oh, that all-nighter you had to pull? #firstworldproblems?! The pimple you popped and complained about? I felt so stupid. I felt so ashamed for worrying and complaining about such trivial things.
But from that shame came blessing. How blessed are you! How blessed are you that you are in good health? (That you are very poorly maintaining by the way) How blessed are you to have family alive and well, how blessed are you to have a job and to earn money to gear, eat more than enough food every day, to have grown up in a Christian family in the US, to have all that you have! How blessed are you Rachel!
Truth is, you don’t know what hardship is. You’ve felt sorry for yourself because your family was a little less wealthy than your friends’, you’ve gone through breakups and heartache, you’ve experienced stress over schoolwork, and you thought you were spiritually strong enough to handle bigger things this year. But man, what a wake up call! I praise my God for blessing me with this blessed, blessed life. I hope and pray that if I ever had to live through something as atrocious as the holocaust or anything like that, that I’d have a faith strong enough to proclaim, “God is good” through it all. To not be so easily shaken, to be like Job, to have faith like Job in times of physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual affliction.
Because life here is momentary. Pain is temporary. But heaven is eternal. And to have been saved from an eternity in hell and to know that heaven in my underserved home - man, that is why I praise God. Because regardless of the tragedies that happen on this temporal earth and during our short littles lives, God is good throughout eternity. We might not understand His works and the reasons behind them, but no matter the circumstance, God is God and God is good. Because in Him, we are saved for the eternity in heaven that awaits.
Wake up, Rachel! This life is not yours to live. But with all the things that you were blessed with - not just the place you live, the toys you have, or the things you get to enjoy, but with your very life - use it to glorify God. Because God is good over your heartache, God is lord over death, God is comfort over pain, and God is eternal peace over momentary affliction.
Peace, it is time to start homework now. Praise God for homework haha.
Meet the contestants of Mr. KSA 2013! Come out this Sunday; it’s going to be an awesome night of fun :) AND IT’S FREE.
Metcalf Hall - 7pm! Cya thereee
To all who are weary, to all who might wake up day after day after day dreading life, to all who are empty, to all who seek happiness from the world, to those who are lonely, and to those seeking love:
There is a love that exists - a love so powerful, so tangible, and so fulfilling. A love that is patient, a love that is kind. One that doesn’t envy or boast. A love not self-seeking, a love slow to anger, a love that keeps no record of wrongs. One that forever protects, forever trusts, forever hopes, and forever perseveres for our hearts.
Christians, I myself very much included, can be such poor representations of this love at times. And for that, I deeply apologize. But that’s the beauty of grace and the depth of His love - to use, call, and love on such broken people. That’s what fuels me, that’s what fulfills me and satisfies my heart. To know that I am pursued by a love that is far greater than any affection man could show me, and to know that day after day, I am strengthened, I am free from my sins and shortcomings, and that I have a lover who will never fail me.
It breaks my heart to see loved ones hurting and struggling with the enemy’s lies telling them that they are unloved, lonely, insignificant, and worthless when there is a perfect God, a lover, a father, the very definition of love, who is so eager to embrace you. He has so much love to pour out over you. If it breaks my heart to see this, I can’t imagine how much His aches to see you so downcast.
Look for love in the only place it exists. If you pursue fulfillment by looking for it in people, relationships, success, etc, you’ll never find it. People will fail you, Christians will fail you, but beyond our tiny spec of a life here on earth, there is a love that cries out for you, a love that knows you, your deepest thoughts, fears, and desires, and a love that loves you just as broken as you come.
Let living water satisfy the thirsty without price! So with that, Lord hear our cry, breath life into these dry and thirsty souls, open the blind eyes, unlock the deaf ears, we are your people crying out in desperation.
God is good, God is love. Happy Thursday everybody :) What a gloomy, rainy day it is in Boston, but a blessed one at that.
It’s amazing how God works at 4am LOL. How He could wake you and your roommate up along with 5 other sisters to go do His work even at this hour. What!?!
How He could use you even when you’ve honestly been neglecting Him and on the night you asked before knocking out, “God, when is the last time I prayed before going to bed?” He sends you out to pray, He sends you out to speak truth and to love. Our God is good.
Ephesians 6, Romans 8, Isaiah 43, Job 11 - Truths!
Be strengthened brothers and sisters! Your identity is in the ALMIGHTY God who has conquered all sin, who has redeemed you already! We are dead to sin and alive in Christ!
I thank God for my beautiful sisters. Holy momma, what amazing warriors of God, what strong women of Christ! Praise GOD.
Satan get out, we laugh at you! Seriously, come at us, brah because God is with us. Try us… If you dare hahahahahaha.
But tonight let’s rejoice in the fact that God is raising up one of our sisters to do SUCH amazing things that Satan is scared lol. God, you are so good. We praise Your name and we thank you. WHOOO! :)
That’s all for now, more shall be added later. Love ya roomie <3