I love Cornerstone Church.
It’s so amazing how much God is at work with this church. I grew up in the “typical” Korean church where shadiness regarding money, staff, and leadership have arguably taken place (how sad is it that that’s considered typical?!), and that’s what I assumed all churches were like. So I accepted it and turned a blind eye to everything because that’s all I ever knew! But coming to Cornerstone really opened up my eyes to see what a healthy church looks like. It’s not at all a perfect church, but it is definitely a church that strives to be led completely by God to humbly serve Him and His people.
One thing I really really really extremely love about Cornerstone is its transparency. At first, I was so weirded out with the concept of Town Hall. Town Hall is a meeting (I believe once every month or so? IDK, something like that) where the staff presents to the entire church a report of how the church is doing - complete with ministry updates, exactly how much is in its bank accounts, where the money is being allocated, how much offering has been given, and more. Since this summer, Cstone has been going through an odd transition as the Pastoral Search Committee has been looking for a new lead pastor. The Town Hall report also updates the larger community on what step of the hiring process the committee is at. How freaking awesome is that? I admire this kind of transparency so much. I love that all of these major decisions are made by the members of the church and not just the leadership staff (because that kind of system was unheard of to me until college). (If you want to check out what this looks like, here’s a PDF of the most recent Town Hall update —> See More)
Another thing I can’t get over is how transparent the staff is. Pastor Danny spoke today and he was fighting back tears while telling us about how he so badly didn’t want to come to church or preach this morning. I was so touched by this. How hard is it for a pastor to admit that to the entire church? To admit that he’s struggling, that he wrestles with God as much as we do (probably much more), but that God is still so, so faithful. It was so beautiful and endearing to hear such genuine words pouring out of him, and I felt sooo blessed to be led by a leadership staff, church, and community that are so open with their struggles.
And just like what we’ve been learning through the Genesis series, MAN. God has been so faithful to this church. Even if it’s only been a year and a half since I started going, I’ve witnessed so many blessings. Church unity, strength, and growth even during the months and months we haven’t had a lead pastor, and a personal blessing for me as I’ve gotten to know an amazing group of brothers and sisters through serving on praise team.
GAH. Sharon came to Cstone with me to visit today and it was amazing being able to worship together! The whole BU Symphony/Cornerstone “separation” doesn’t really exist to me because when it comes down to it, we worship and serve the same amazing and faithful God, and just delighting in that with my beautiful roommate was so awesome. Praise God for friends, praise God for encouraging roommates, praise God for church (both back home and in Boston), praise God for community, and praise God for His unwavering faithfulness.
Dang. Praise God.
Today Rachel tried and wore makeup. She liked it. Plus, her hair is growing. Rachel says yay. She is excited for Spring Break. #selfiesinmahbed
What Rachels do at 3am instead of sleeping. I saw a picture of this scene on tumblr last night and thought it was pretty, so I whipped out my pastels in light of midterms being over :) YAY SPRING BREAK WAHOO.
Beautiful cover of the saddest song ever. This song is on repeat at 608C. Hahahahaha I think Sharon and I listen to at least one version of this song every night…
(Source: myfavkmusic, via sharonkilonhan)
Today I randomly ran into Jiaj near Berklee and we somehow got on the topic of me graduating next year. He asked me, “Why are you in such a rush to get out of here?” (Or something along those lines haha). And this is a question I’ve been thinking a lot about these past couple of days, weeks?
I’ve been asked why I’m choosing to do this many many many times. And my answer always changes. Sometimes it’s, “I hate Boston’s weather.” Other times it’s, “I’m not cut out for school, BU is too expensive, most of my friends back home are older and graduated, I’m not too fond of the city, I hate doing homework,” etc. etc. etc. And all these are true!
As of now, I am officially graduating next May. Some days I’m so excited and I can’t wait. But honestly, I’ve really been on the fence with how I feel about this these past few weeks. Graduating early means not getting to take the elective classes I wanted to take (design, ad classes, skating, change my minor in Deaf Studies to a double major, ASL 5 & 6, etc.). Graduating early means leaving Cornerstone. Graduating early means losing a year’s worth of things I can only do/experience as a student that I will never get back (the people, the community, easy trips to NY, senior year activities, video opportunities, HAVE I MENTIONED LEAVING CSTONE?, etc.)
On the other hand, I can’t imagine having to stay in Boston for another year. The thought of that terrifies me. It’s true, I don’t handle this weather well, I love and miss my friends back at home, I don’t wake up or go to sleep as a happy camper most days, I get so overwhelmed with balancing work and schoolwork, and I don’t always associate this place with my fondest memories. But despite all these things, this is the place where I grew the most - this is the place I don’t want to leave without having learned everything I possibly could. And for that, I’m grateful.
But like I said, I’m still set to graduate early. I haven’t, and I don’t think I’ll change that fact. I just wonder if it makes any difference that I see it a little differently now.
Got super inspired after going to a Deaf event today and felt like motivating myself. C:
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I hate that word. Potential. Blegh.
^ Good post. Minus the optimism at the end. Gah. I will make something out of this one day. It’s a very powerful and bitter feeling.
In the meantime, I’m getting older. How weird is it that all I wanted so far was to be older? To graduate, to start working, to get married, have kids, etc. etc. ?
But tonight, I am different. I want my grade school years back. I want the years when I could eat anything and not feel guilty for it, the years when my knees didn’t pop every time I bent down, the years when all-nighters couldn’t touch me, and the years when I had all the time and means to chase whatever I wanted.
:’) “I always said the only thing I have to give you was a poor gift, and it’s myself, and I always gave it, and if there’s a way to come back and give it, I’ll do that too.”
"Being married is like having a color television set; you never want to go back to black and white."
"In my mind and my heart there has never been, there is not now and never will be another Annie."